"Cast your fears on God and he will sustain you..." (Psalm 55:22)

"For nothing is impossible with God" (Luke 1:37)

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Live, Love, Laugh

It's been a few days maybe more since my last blog but didn't have the time nor energy when I did to log on. I am sure it's fairly obvious that our FET was not a success. I have decided to take a break, I say "I" because Hubby is gung ho to keep going but emotionally and physically, I need a break. This weekend we will go in to see my RE and discuss our options. I am fairly certain that I have a cyst on my left ovary and at this point I don't know whether it is an endometrioma or regular cyst...hopefully an ultra-sound this weekend might clarify that question.

In other matters, our Easter weekend was busy and fun, ever day was packed with major activity so no time to dwell on what was not to be. We walked a fair bit and had some fairly intense conversations. What is clear is that we both want to be parents in a big way but unlike myself Hubby is not open to adoption. This is very new to me...and to be honest a shock. He admitted that he is not sure that he would be able to love another person's child and I respect that. I will always long for my biological child but I also know that I am capable of loving a child not born of my womb as much as I would a child that bears my DNA.

Easter Sunday was spent calling various family members and having lunch with Hubby's extended paternal family. The lamb was perfect and dessert was simply delicious. Our contribution Deviled Quail's eggs and Smoked Trout pate on Melba Toast was very warmly received and enjoyed. Hubby and his Aunt played ping pong until late evening...a good time was had by all.

This weekend we're attending a classical concert with his Dad and wife...this will be interesting, my FIL could be a handful at times but they don't get out much and we had the extra tickets...I hope we don't live to regret it.


  1. Glad that you had fun and still able to love and laugh !! :)

  2. I'm so sorry! I'm glad to hear you are in good spirits. Hopefully the cyst can be resolved and you can feel normal again before you decide what you will do next. Keep blogging!

  3. Thanks Jennie. Just seeing your comment now...I am still getting use to the blogging techniques.

  4. Thanks Baby sis..talk soon.