"Cast your fears on God and he will sustain you..." (Psalm 55:22)

"For nothing is impossible with God" (Luke 1:37)

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Friday, April 16, 2010


It's Friday and the weather is simply superb at least it is for the next few hours and then it drops to 2 deg C....AGAIN but I am thankful for small pleasures. I am taking advantage and sitting on our porch, no one ever sits on their porch on my street...I wonder why, they're all probably thinking "what is she doing"? Having grown up in the Caribbean where we all sat on our porches and chatted with the neighbours, I still find it incredibly difficult to embrace the culture of North American backyard and uber privacy. Oh well!!

I had a lovely lunch with co-workers today and tomorrow Hubby and I will attend a ballet performance with a friend who s celebrating her birthday. We met at an IF group session so we had to come up with a "story" to prepare for the curious few who will want to know how we met. I am not a big fan of telling "stories" but it is important to this person that the IF remains a "secret" and so I will do my (our) best to respect that.

This month we are taking a break!! No needles, no pills except my Folic Acid, my Prenatal vitamins and my thyroid medication but thankfully no PIO. It feels so goood to be able to walk again without limping or feeling sick all day.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Live, Love, Laugh

It's been a few days maybe more since my last blog but didn't have the time nor energy when I did to log on. I am sure it's fairly obvious that our FET was not a success. I have decided to take a break, I say "I" because Hubby is gung ho to keep going but emotionally and physically, I need a break. This weekend we will go in to see my RE and discuss our options. I am fairly certain that I have a cyst on my left ovary and at this point I don't know whether it is an endometrioma or regular cyst...hopefully an ultra-sound this weekend might clarify that question.

In other matters, our Easter weekend was busy and fun, ever day was packed with major activity so no time to dwell on what was not to be. We walked a fair bit and had some fairly intense conversations. What is clear is that we both want to be parents in a big way but unlike myself Hubby is not open to adoption. This is very new to me...and to be honest a shock. He admitted that he is not sure that he would be able to love another person's child and I respect that. I will always long for my biological child but I also know that I am capable of loving a child not born of my womb as much as I would a child that bears my DNA.

Easter Sunday was spent calling various family members and having lunch with Hubby's extended paternal family. The lamb was perfect and dessert was simply delicious. Our contribution Deviled Quail's eggs and Smoked Trout pate on Melba Toast was very warmly received and enjoyed. Hubby and his Aunt played ping pong until late evening...a good time was had by all.

This weekend we're attending a classical concert with his Dad and wife...this will be interesting, my FIL could be a handful at times but they don't get out much and we had the extra tickets...I hope we don't live to regret it.